I have been doing a lot of searching myself here recently. I have already made a commitment to changing how I am living my life. It is pretty disheartening when I look at myself and see all the changes that I feel need made. It can be overwhelming when not looking through Jesus’ eyes. From my own stand point, to ask anyone to make that much change on their own strength would be asinine. To much to ask for. Impossible.

The main thing that stands out to me is that whatever I am doing on any given day be done for the Lord and not for my own selfish desires. To live for the Lord means to die to myself. Does that mean I have to be straight laced and never have any fun? No. Absolutely not. It just means that I now have a change of heart that takes the focus off of myself. That I am no longer the sole importance of my own daily living.

My entire life so far has been made up of what Lee Ann wants. I have a lot of learning to do regarding finding what God wants. I will be focusing more on putting others needs before mine. Though I do not plan to neglect myself. That is the positive in all this. God cares for me too, and so shall I.

Some people have the innate ability to see what others need easier than others. As a mother, I know my children have needs- I just have not always focused on meeting their needs and desires before my own.

I think by nature we are all inclined to have a little of that selfish voice that says, me me me….

Well that voice was the one that ran my entire life up to this point. I am finding that though it is difficult to make this change, that it is also freeing. To get to take a step back and see my life for what it had become also makes me stronger. It gives me a desire and drive to be better. To make a difference.

I don’t know about the rest of you, but it has grown in importance to me recently to be able to look back on my life and say that it was not lived in vain. I want to leave a lasting legacy that is not in the direction I was heading.

Thank you Lord for changing my heart and giving me new direction. -Amen