I love opening packages after I purchase items. When they arrive at my house I get an exhilaration that I believed was like no other.

It didn’t matter if the item I purchased was inexpensive, or more on the expensive side of the scale. I love the feeling I get when they arrive. Opening the box, moving the tissue paper aside to reveal my next treasure.

I was trying to fill an empty place in my heart with that elated, high, wonderful feeling that I get when opening a package.

My therapist asked me, “what do you think you would be missing if you stopped buying things”? My answer was that feeling of excitement.

She asked me if I have ever felt this feeling from anything else.

My answer was yes, I have. I feel this way when I am worshipping my Lord. When the Holy Spirit falls, and I feel free and happy.

I am working toward buying less, and filling my life with more time reading the Word and listening to Christian music. This is how I can meet Jesus on a personal level, and experience that happy, elevated feeling. It is honestly a better feeling than I could ever get from my purchases.

My Jesus. I love you. Help me to see that you can make me a more fulfilled person than I can on my own.