Have you ever felt like a misfit? Like it just didn’t seem to matter what you did, there was just no way that you were going to fit in or no way to make it right?

I have been there before.

After my four hip surgeries I have dealt with feeling like my life was blown into smitherines.

Afterwards I just had a feeling that I didn’t fit in anywhere anymore. I could no longer do what I was trained to do. I felt I was no longer helpful to anyone.

I also found out who were my true friends during this time. What was surprising to me was that many of whom I felt were close friends really were not at all.

I have also dealt with feeling less than in my family arena at times as well. This left me feeling I was less special than someone else because I got less attention. I have learned since that I am just as special to God as other people. I just have different talents and gifts than different people, and thus am used differently to further His kingdom.

I slowly am trying to pick myself back up off the ground, and look to come out of this as a fighter. Stronger than ever before.

I am stubborn, and sometimes that comes in handy. A just tell me I can’t do something and just you watch while I do it kind of mentality.

I know what it feels like to burnt out at a job, and to feel unappreciated. I know what it is like to have people talk behind your back. I know what it feels like to have a coworker call you at two in the morning to talk about to hear about how bad it was at work and the unbelievable things that were being said about me.

I know… I have been there 9/10.

I want to help people who have found themselves in situations similar to mine.

I do not want to be quiet. I do not want my voice stifled. I want to scream it from the mountaintops. IT CAN BE BETTER. IT WILL GET BETTER.

It is a choice to choose yourself and self improvement. It is a choice to follow God along the way, or do it without Him.

I am determined to coach others and give them courage in tough times. I want to see people succeed.

I am going back to College to help others like me. The underdogs.

It is okay to be an underdog, but you don’t want to live there.

May God bless you today.